Sorry to hear about your brother Puddle. I lost my brother in 2007 suddenly and unexpectedly. We were very close, fished and hunted together all the time. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about and miss him.
I went back through and read all of your posts to find out more about it, and although I didn't find that, I found something more important, how much he meant to you. It's obvious in your older posts. It reminded me of how my brother and I got along.
Anyway, always remember those good times because even when you're sad, they'll help you get through those times, no matter what they are.